video ● tenth reflection

[straying]

[At first, she's quiet for a little while. She opens her mouth as if she knew what to say before but now that the camera's rolling, she's second-guessing it. And so there's a pause before she starts talking.]

Matthew's gone.

[... and she looks a little confused, as if she never expected to say those words. They sound so foreign.]

... sheesh. Can he ever leave without causing me problems?

Well, now you know.

[A bit of a shrug and she ends the feed.]

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

[A sheepish smile and a shrug.]

I don't like people coming back after they leave. It seems very lazy and weak-willed. If he's out of my life now, I want him to stay out. It's easier for the both of us that way.

[... so why does it feel like she's still trying to convince herself?]

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

Well yeah, I guess that makes sense.

[No, Saya... he doesn't sound convinced either.]

But still.

[He wants to say something, but he's not sure if he should.]

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

[... she shouldn't ask. She shouldn't ask after she's trying so hard to convince herself and he only has an argument to offer and she shouldn't ask, she shouldn't ask--]

Still...?

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

Don't you miss him at all?

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

[.... she's been asked that so many times, she just sighs.]

I don't think so. What's there to miss?

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

He cause you that much trouble?

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

I'm going to enjoy getting a full night's sleep for a while, Sora. Sleep, some time to myself, and a good meal alone occasionally.

[A wise nod and a laugh.]

Yeah... I'll finally be alone for a while. No chance of him dropping by the apartment when he's bored or any of that.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

Heyy.... wait a minute. Is this guy the 'troublesome jerk' who's only 'good company?'

The one whose name you wouldn't tell me?

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

Oh... I didn't think you'd remember!

[She laughs.]

That's the one. Matthew, the thief who wouldn't let me have a moment to myself while he was around.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

That's a load off your shoulders then.

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

You have no idea. It'll just be... boring without him around for a while, but I can get over that.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

Still... I bet he'll miss you too.

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

[.... just outright laughter.]

Matthew? Pffahaha, Sora, I'll give you credit since you didn't know him but... Matthew is not the type to get attached. And neither am I, hence why it's perfectly fine.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

You sure? I know I'd miss you if I left.

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

[...]

See, that's exactly what I don't like about this place.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

Whaddo you mean?

[What's wrong with missing somebody who's gone?]

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

You're can't miss someone you weren't even supposed to get to know.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

Actually... that's what one of the things I like about Vatheon.

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[sweeperesque.livejournal.com]

[She shakes her head.]

Maybe for everyone else, but I'm not supposed to stay in anyone's life for long. It sucks when you're left behind, and I know that from personal experience.

I never want to make anyone feel that way.

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[lockandkeyblade.livejournal.com]

I dunno...

That's kind of a sad way to think about it.